Mommyhood and Umemployment

Three more shifts until unemployment. Yippie!! Well actually three more shifts and then I won't work at the theater any more. I am looking for other employment, just not very hard. I want a job that will allow me to be a good mom. I think I do a good job of trying but sometimes that just isn't enough. I love the theater industry. I love working with people and helping them to have a fun experience. What I don't like is working weekends and holidays, late hours, and feeling burnt out. I don't know about anyone else but I don't think it is healthy to share my unhealthiness with my eight month old son. Brian and I are so screwed up from working at the theater that circadian rhythms are a myth to us. People actually go to bed at a descent hour? Brian is such a sweetheart, when I work he waits up for me. I assume to make sure I get home okay. It is so sweet and lovely. But I hate it. I hate that if he waits up for me that means he only gets at most four hours of sleep a night. Goodness! What constitutes a descent hour? I believe that hour is not constantly 2 AM. I also believe that little babies should be in bed WAY before that. Aidan likes to take a couple of cat naps until mommy gets home, on most nights. I hate it. I should just be there to put him to bed at eight every night, don't you think so? I am scared and excited about this unemployment thing. I have always had a job since I was 15 (14 is you count a regular babysitting gig). I look forward to quitting and making my family healthier by regular sleeping hours, better eating habits, teaching Aidan new things, staying on top of homework and other important life situations. Lets hope the idea in my head can become a reality.