So much and yet so little

Nothing like slacking on the blogging front. Sorry dedicated readers, if I even have them anymore. Like has been busy and stressful as of late and honestly, I haven't had the desire to blog much. I get on and check my blog everyday hoping to read others updated blogs but I have been plain lazy.

Some of our updates. As I type Brian is on an airplane flying home to me. He has been gone about 25 hours and in 4 more hours I get to see him again. I can't believe how much I miss him right now. Maybe its because I know he is on a plane and not at work. Maybe its because I haven't felt well lately and Brian always makes me feel better. That being said...Brian flew to Virginia to interview for a position with Juniper Systems (his parent company) to work with/for AT&T labs. This job would be ideal for Brian. All hands on, tinkering with computer equipment trying to find out problems and stuff. Why is Brian looking for a new job? Well he does have a job, but there are pretty strong rumors that have frightened his collegues and friends to find other positions before his queue gets completely outsourced to India. That's right Brian is being outsourced. I find this funny just because I always thought it was a joke and not a reality. Remember in Office Space when they talked about it? I laughed too. But the outsourcing scare must be legit because in the last three weeks about five or six of Brian's collegues have flown the coup and found other stable employment elsewhere. Why did he fly to Virginia for an interview? Are there not positions around here? There are positions around here but there are plenty of unemployed network engineers looking at them too. Why did we decide to look out of state for employment opportunities? Outside of Utah there are plenty of job opportunities. Brian and I are excited for a new adventure in our lives. I enjoy Utah, family, my home, my friends, etc. But why not take the leap and get out of dodge? Oh that's right the other big deciding factor. Jobs in Utah are basically in the $40,000-60,000 salary range. Out of state they range from $50,000 to 150,000. We have done our research and we are aware of cost of living increases but seriously that is a lot of cash. The job he just interviewed for was asking between $85,000-110,000 starting with awesome benefits and bonus potential (up to 14% of his yearly wage). !!!! So lets pretend for a moment shall we. Great. If Brian gets this position and they offer him $85,000 it is the equivalent of making $65,000 here in Utah. Both are raises and both we can live with. Plus I am a history major and I enjoy vacationing back East (mainly the DC area) and now I can be there to see all the things that I still haven't been able to visit. And trust me that list is HUGE!

In other news my Aidan turns 3 on Monday. 3, my baby is 3! Good grief where has the time gone! We plan to have an Iron Man themed birthday and for Aidan it is going to rock! I will post pictures and blog about that later this week.

Brian and I were recently given callings in our ward. Brian is the Ward Employment Specialist and I am the CTR 7 teacher. I was recently told that the CTR 7 class was divided into two groups, the controllable and the uncontrollable (not a quote but basic idea of the divisions). I was given the uncontrollable class. When my portion of the class was in CTR 6 the class went through about 7 teachers last year. All were released because of the kids. The primary president has been very attentive and worried about how my teaching is going. She wants to make sure I am doing okay in the class. All that information aside...I LOVE my class. They are very bright and knowledgable kids. My class list has about ten kids on it but I have only seen 4. Only two come regularly and the others have been hit or miss. As I have prepared for these lessons I have understood some things. First, I don't know how prepared the other teachers have been because these kids are involved and have fabulous questions. Maybe part of the problem is the questions have intimidated the teachers? Second, maybe my time at the day care has helped me to understand personalities and learning disabilities. And third I am really enjoy every aspect of teaching except for the part where the primary room needs work. When they get the microphone to work we also get a radio station coming through the speakers so it can be very distracting. And the room stinks. Maybe that's just a me problem.

And last but not least. I am nervous to put this out there but I am feeling better about everything so here goes. On Monday I have a doctor's appointment (what a busy Monday!). On Monday I will be eight weeks pregnant. There I said it. Now I can accept it. I have been very wary of this pregnancy. I am one of the lucky few who know almost immediately that I am pregnant. This time we found out at about four weeks. I get horribly sick and so we are able to figure out the changes my body is involved in. With my last (lost) pregnancy we found out at 3.5 weeks and had a miscarriage at 6 weeks 4 days. I was nervous and cautious about these dates. I all but put myself of bed rest. I still did stuff, but most of the time I let things slide and wait until later. I hope I don't have to shoot myself again in the foot. But I am feeling pretty sick and pregnant so I am taking it as a good sign. I know, I am weird and never thought myself a superstitious person but I am apparently.

So there you have it. My reasons for not blogging...secrets, stress and lack of desire to blog. Hopefully now we can move forward.